Forgiveness

"Forgive and forget."
     You have absolutely no idea how much I dislike that phrase. Maybe that's because forgiving and forgetting are nearly impossible for me to do. I tend to hold grudges, I can't help it. I have always been this way, ever since I was little. I hold on to everything. I wish I could forget. I wish I could be forgiving, and just move on, but I can't. It takes strength to forgive, and I don't think I have quite that much strength.Not yet. I could come up with quite a lengthy list of people who have screwed me over, said a mean thing, etc. I even have friends who I hold tiny grudges against. Though, I am ashamed to admit that. I wish I could forget, that way I wouldn't have to forgive. I'd be soo much happier, less stressed. Unfortunately, I have a pretty good memory.
     Now, grudges against yourself are even worse. Sometimes the hardest people to forgive are ourselves. Why are we like this? Why are we so hard on ourselves? If someone did the same thing I did last night, I would tell them that they should forgive themselves and learn from it. However, it's not always easy to take my own advice. In this case, I'm going to try.
     What DID I learn? Well, I learned that I have much more strength than I give myself credit for (thanks to God, cause it didn't all come from me <3). I also learned that if you do make a mistake, if you do fall, there will be people to help pick you back up. (Thanks to everyone who cheered me up :) I could never thank you enough. I learned I have some pretty good friends from the interwebs. <3)
     I guess what I have to realize is that we all make mistakes, and we will continue to make mistakes because there's simply so much to learn during this lifetime.
    

You don't have to forget, but try your hardest to forgive. If you can't do either one of those things, then learn because each mistake is a lesson. Are you going to pass or fail? It's all up to you. <3

--SomeGirl